new skin.

yupps. a new skin. i think i like this one better.
been really tiring lately.
i think that being tired was the only thing i've been mentioning these few days.
i'm feeling rather peachy.
the choir ain't going to germany no more. not even china.
but i understand. it is too near to their 'o' levels. i won't be selfish.
miss chye started by saying next year we gonna have practices 3 or 4 times a week.
oh heck. i'll be dead tired next year.
i feel very alone right now.
i feel like a textbook. only needed whenever we do stuff that involves it.
sorry textbook. i treated you like dirt.
and now i'm treated like dirt. great.

thank you evangeline for always being there for me when no one was.
i really really really appreciate it:))
i'm glad you like the pooh bear. =p
i can't imagine without you in the choir :((
you're leaving next year. i'm gonna cry.
you cannot forget me ok! hahahas.
if not i whack you!
you rock evan! i love you:))
i'll certainly miss you alot. kekeke.
yupps.

and jeremy.
must take care of yourself.
i know you're going through a rough patch.
but must jiayous!
don't make me worried ok.
darn! i sound like a mother. lols.
nutters.
anyway. try to eat and sleep at least a little ok.
yupps.

i dunno what to do.
i feel darn troubled.
my head feels like it's gonna burst.
although i don't show how i actually feel. the more i think, the more it seems that no one understands my character at all.
that no one even knows me.
even the least emotional song now can make me cry.
i'm not kidding.
there's a whole truckload of tears waiting to flow out.
only, i'm holding them back.
choir practice till 5:30 everyday just doesn't make it any better.
it makes me more tired.
i can't even type or speak coherrently now.
eye bags getting worst.
i'm dead beat.
even considered standing in the middle of the road junction so i'll just die immediately.
that's good..
by actually listening and helping people in depression, i'm sort of like telling that to myself too. wierd huh.
ahwells. guess i'll just stop here.
good night.
ttfn.