erhm. dunno lah.

been rather bored these few days. nothing to do.
i'm in love with jesse mccartney!
i love his songs lah! hahas.
hmms.
not really looking forward to going to school tomorrow.
another day in school is another depressing day.
at least at home, i'm alone and i don't have to pretend to be happy and everything.
yesyes. jeremy thinks i'm being to chirpy and he wants another mouth with his name at the links. one jealous person. *shakes head*
christmas carolling practice starts this saturday. not really in the mood for festive celebrations.
these occasions are just too happy man.
can't stand it.
shou bu liaos.
i love reading fanfictions:))
they're so innocent and cliched.
ok. nvm. that's not the point.
amanda thinks i'm mad.
prolly all the depression thing has gotten into my head.
haven't gotten over the habit of having that vicious weapon in my pocket 24/7.
don't come scolding me. i'll just turn a deaf ear. most prolly.
cos i'm somehow a lil sick of all the same talks that different people have been telling me.
they're all the same thing you know.
"stop doing it."
"it won't help."
"there are more unfortunate people out there."
i can't stand it okay.
i was only able to do some thinking at the previous choir prac cos yinxue, dionne and evan were at TAF camp. and i had no one to tok to lah.
somehow it did no help.
went to at least 5 world of sports yesterday to look for the "unflowery male deodorant". couldn't find it.
i swear all these world of sports are USELESS.
i'm so effing pissed.
it sucks.
i don't like this.
more choir practices.
why can't i just go overseas.
ohwait.
i just remembered.
i'm too poor to afford even cds much less airplane tickets.
yes.
i'm poor.
they say poor people are much more happier.
i resent that.
i'm poor.
i'm unhappy.
i'm depressed.
i want to die.
there.
dumb philosophies out there are for NOTHING!
ok. i shouldn't be getting angry. it's not good for health.
youth camp.
11th to 14th december.
am i doing the right thing in going?
i'm veh confused now.
can i just bang a wall and die please.
shan't talk any further incase i dampan your mood too.
so i shall just go away.
goodbye.