dreamer.

it occured to me i'm so much of a dreamer person.
always indulging in fantasies one after another.
although knowing that in a world like this, it will never happen.
so materialistic...
it's like looking for perfect love knowing that it can't be found.
like insisting on doing something although knowing that it'll probably will fail no matter what.
like looking for a pin in a pile of haystack.
or like in spongebob, looking for a strand of hay among a whole pile of pins.
sometimes, i think disney is UNHEALTHY.
it's just feeding us with more lies about reality.
happy endings never occur in this world.
it's kinda impossible.
the nonsense about how 'love will find a way' and that you will always find your 'prince'.
just deluding little kiddies on what this world really is.
but somehow, knowing all this doesn't stop me from indulging in fantasies and disney's heartwarming shows that can only happen in shows.
i'm that much of a dreamer.
it scares me even.
dreaming of a perfect life.
ignorance is bliss.
somehow, my english teacher managed to twist these three words into something more.
she asked us: who are the most self-centered people on earth.
first reaction.
how would i friggin noe?
the answer was little kids.
why you ask.
because their ignorant.
everything is all about me me me.
nobody else.
it got me thinking.
it would be so nice to be that way isn't it.
to be pampered.
i know most of the times i'm self-centered.
i want this i want that.
but those are kids.
innocent little kids.
i'm not.
she den proceeded to say that our class had the most self-centered people.
i don't deny it.
nearly every teacher have given up on us.
we piss of teachers.
heck i give up on my studies even.
don't care anymore.
everytime they give us the suckiest teachers and expect us to do well.
ahwells.
that's life i guess.
i rather indulge in my fantasies every second of the day instead.
so much more pleasant.
to feel nothing other than happiness.
it'll be nice.
yups.
that's about it i guess.
ttfn~