i know it's christmas and i shouldn't be feeling the way i am la. but i can't help it can i? you know, thinking back to my primary five and six years, i'd remember this girl* who dated la. only to end up breaking up. tell me. is it worth it to date so young? i don't know.. i really don't know la.
maybe you* would just say that i'm insecure or something la. maybe i am. i'm insecure about so many things that i'd rather just stay home and keep everything thing to myself instead of going out and feeling all insecure about this and that.. you said that you talk to me in a different way? i don't really think so at all.. i'd see the same words repeated to every girl you talk to. so am i to believe what you say? or what i see? i think you're getting sick and tired of me arguing with you huh.. maybe i should just ignore you altogether and just concentrate on other things instead.. did you mean every single word you said to me? or were they just sweet nothings you told every other girl? i really don't know.. are you really a big flirt as he* said? so who am i to trust now? everything is contradicting the other.. i know this whole thing is just gonna end as you saying that you don't want to leave me and that you don't want me to leave you either.. but is that really the truth? guess i'll never really know.. call me an insecure biatch, but i don't care.. i just want my answers.. well maybe i will care if it came out of your mouth.. but.. ahh.. nvm..
i don't even know why i'm blogging about something so personal.. i must really be going outsane already.. HEH!
*names are not mentioned due to their privacy.
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