the unglamourous

2006-01-21T14:09:00.000+08:00

new blog(:
glossylips-.diaryland.com
get the username and password from me.
if i want to give it to you, you'll get it.
if i don't, that's just too bad. heh.
TAA DARLINGS. (:

2006-01-19T19:56:00.000+08:00

a rush of emotions running through my head..
i don't know what to feel or do..
i guess friends just aren't friends anymore..
should have thought i'd be used to all these mockery by now..
but no, i just have to be such a fucking weakling..
don't mind my language..
i'm just not in the best of moods right now..
NO ONE IS MY FRIEND.
i'll just live with it.

`i pray that i can learn to forgive and forget :(

2006-01-18T20:48:00.000+08:00

don't love you no more (i'm sorry); craig david

new year, new tagboard i guess. time to start afresh and forget the past. though it's already been one month into the year. hahas. i tell you! i've never copied so much notes at one go EVER in my entire life! see. this proves that i'm actually putting in the effort to study hard. *BEAMS* aren't you just proud of me? heh heh heh! =D oh. today was jeannie's farewell party :(( so sad la. i cried. we were singing you raise me up for her and halfway through, so many of us started crying. LOL. can imagine right! sammie says it's so eventful. LOL. she's leaving next wed at 10pm i think. she's going to perth. SO SAD PLEASE! ahhwells. must be happy for her. she's studying overseas. hahas. i'm talking nonsense. heh heh heh. sabo-ed jeannie during the games la. so funny. she had to do a forfeit in which we made her pole dance. HAHA. so funny. I LOVE HISTORY. so random right. hahhahas. history is really nice nice nice! :)) literature too. hahahas. i just can't take maths. i dunno why. hahas. i so sotong. see numbers only blur already. HAHA. nicole = unmathematical. if there is such a word that is. hahahas. SEE! i'm talking nonsense again. ohgosh. i'm starting to talk to myself! ahhh. ignore my nonsensical crap. hahas. tomorrow. I'M FINALLY GOING HOME FOR LUNCH. gosh. been out every single day since last week. tiring seh. and you know what! i ABSOLUTELY LOVE my guitar classmate's SHOE. it's so damn nice please! i want it! ohyes. i want lip gloss too! =D i want handbags too! many many of them! buy for me please! XD hahahas. okays la. i shall end here and not be a naggy old granny. heh heh heh. TAA DARLINGS! :))

`I LOVE JEANNIE! :))

2006-01-14T15:47:00.000+08:00

hellos everyone. new skin again. hahas.
randomfact: guitar lesson is in an hours time.
hahas. i'm bored la. i shall talk about this morning's secondary one induction ceremony. hahas. woke up at 6. ate breakfast while watching teevee till i realised i was going to be late if i don't leave soon. HEH. so left house and reached there earlier than i expected. there was absolutely NO traffic. lols. waited for dionne to come. then we went toilet to change into our jeans. after which we proceeded to the music studio to tie our hair. chye wanted some kinda funkayye hairdo for all of us. HAHA. guess what i ended up in. IT COULDN'T BE ANYMORE HORRENDOUS PLEASE! 2 ponytails at the SIDE. THE SIDE! like some preschooler. HAHA. and yellow hairband. mind you, the rubber band had RIBBONS. we could like cross the road to calvery baptist kindergarten and sit in a row to take kindergarten class photos! LOL. i think i looked so horrendous la! then they say i look cute -.- lols! thank god no one brought their cameras! or maybe i just left before they could take them out. but during the performance there was this photographer! AHHH! THE HORROR! and msjou was videotaking it please! ohman. i feel so embarrassed! i could hear the secondary ones giggling please! =S so embarrassing. infront of my juniors summore. ECKS. so mortifying. BUT IT WAS FUN. lols! and food was provided after that so i ate the food they gave for lunch. THE CHILLI WAS REALLY NICE! hahahas. it was beehoon, chilli fishballs and sausages. hahas. ohman. i love the chilli. it reminded me of my primary school chilli sauce from the fishball noodle stall. ahhhh. i wanna go back and eat the food. cedar is nice and all but the food is just horrible la. okayfine. maybe not horrible but i don't really like it. hahahas. i miss the curry mee from my primary school. LOL. oh oh oh. i just thought of another random fact! AM I GREAT OR AM I GREAT! =DDD
randomfact #2: i want people to treat me to CAFECARTEL on my birthday! *beams!*
do that and i'll be really really really happy! hahhas. okay la. i shall stop my nonsensical nonsense now. LOL. bye darlings! :))

rainrain keep on going.

2006-01-12T20:31:00.000+08:00

hellos all! i'm utterly bored! *slumps on table*. hahas. walked in the rain today while going back from choir prac. too lazy to get my umbrella out. hahas. plus i stay so near. kinda waste time. hahaas. walking in the rain is fun. hahas. you know, i have so many things to say. but well, now that i'm blogging, i feel like i have nothing to say anymore. LOL. guess got no inspiration about what to blog about anymore eh. it seems everyone's down :\ well.. i'm feeling down too.. sigh.. well. guess i'll stop here. dunno what to say. hahas. byess

hellos all.

2006-01-11T19:47:00.000+08:00

hellos. back to blog more. i'm SICK! :\ i feel horrible. i have a headache and flu. i've been sneezing since morning. i reckon my nose is redder than rudolph's already. HAHA. had choir today. couldn't sing properly cos of my flu. also had history and geog test today. gahhhh. i tink i failed my history. i didn't study. AT ALL! =X don't feel like going school tmr. i feel very sick. ahahs. i think i sang really horribly today during rehearsal. hahas. tmr we're gonna have full dress rehearsal. with our jeans and all. i feel so tired and it's only the second week. ohman. i'm gonna die this year :\ pray that i'll come out of this in one piece. heh. i'm not made for studying man. i can't study for NUTS. hahahas. choir's taking up all my time :\ bleah. unfairness. hahas. man. i'm so tired. can't blog already. gonna fall asleep already. heh. goodbyes!

thehotchick.

2006-01-10T21:22:00.000+08:00

hellos. just finished watching the hot chick on channel five. hahas. i think that show is really sweet. i cried. as usual. hahas. i know you guys are gonna tell me that i cry for every show that i watch. HAHA. maybe i'm just a little bit too over emotional. okayla. ALOT. hahas. it was so touching la. so romantic! hahas. guess maybe because of that i start crying over romantic shows. LOL. overly emotional and sensitive. heh. it was really touching what jessica, in clive's body at the prom, told april la. it's really sweet. it made me cry. HAHA. well. mummy wants me off the computer. so i'll go now la. taa darlings.

`maybe it's just over the fact that you've never told me those words that i cried..

happyhariraya:))

2006-01-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

hellos darlings:)) starting to cheer up abit already although it's been raining every single day :\ hahas. daddy! must jiayous k! =D
went to kap (king albert's park or smth like that) today. met hoho at junction8 before making our way there cos blur me didn't know how to get there and if i were to attempt to go there alone, i was sure to get lost. HAHA. we arranged to go there to study but we ended up making alot of noise talking. HEH. there were SQUEALISH SAMMIE, hoho, caleb, sharonchan, janicesoon, cheryl and me! we were doing stupid things in good old mcdonalds. hahas. it was FUN. rushed home after that but ended up late. as usual. hahas. but didn't get caught cos mummy wasn't home. HEH. tomorrow's hari raya. HAPPY HARI RAYA ALL YOU PEOPLE! :)) lets all stay home and rot and do more hmwk. HEH. my maths teacher reckons a one day holiday is very LONG. hahahas. she's MAD. *uses finger and draws later circles on temple* hahas. someone call me please.. i'm so bored! :\ hahas. nothing much to blog about la. school life is after all, boring. hahas. did i mention i suck at design and technology la! hahas. i was whining to estee to help me please! hahas. i finished just as the bell struck! YAY! am i great or am i great! HAHA. =DD okays. i shall end here then. GOODBYE DARLINGS!

`i don't know what to feel or do..

myboringlife.

2006-01-08T21:16:00.000+08:00

was not in the best of moods lately. but guess i'll just stay happy around you guys:)) i love my friends! ESPECIALLY MY DARLING SQUEALISH SAMMIE:)) your walnut loves you! *grins widely* atleast something good came out of something bad. hahas. i'm just grateful i have such great friends!! you guys brighten my very day. hahahas. feel like doing some shoutouts thing. hahas. guess i'm just really happy now. :))

daddy;
cheer up k. your darling nu er is always here for you! don't sad already! later got wrinkles and white hair! not good! then not pretty anymore! you're my pretty daddy. must stay pretty and happy! i know it seems like nothing's working out anymore. but you gotta persevere k. even if the world turns its back on you, i'm still here k! SMILE! seeing you sad makes me sad too! I LOVE YOU DADDY!

squealish sammie;
MY SQUEALISH SAMMIE! :)) gotten to know you better these few weeks! grateful for that! you're a nice nice guy! and squealish too! HEEHEEHEE! like i said above, YOUR DARLING WALNUT LOVES YOU! :)) and i'm always here if need be!

amanda;
GIRLFRIEND! thanks for always being there for me through my tough times! i appreciate it lots! LOVEYOU MUCH!

well. guess i'll stop here today then. taa darlings.

`i dunno why but i can't seem to bring myself to delete your sms-es..
why?..

confessionsofabrokenheart.

2006-01-06T21:25:00.000+08:00

i guess this just won't work out no more..

i guess this is the end..

what could've been or should've been shall end..

goodbye..

`ifyou think it isn't hurtingme, think again..

damnit la!

2006-01-05T21:16:00.000+08:00

what's wrong with the freaking school la.
i just suddenly don't feel like studying anymore. :\
damn, my higher chinese's teacher is absolutely nuts! she's gone mad! i'm only human okay. i'll die if i continue with school like that. i know it's all for our own "good". but what the hell la. staying back every tuesday just to do a damn chinese composition? that's just bloody wasting my time! it's bad enough i have choir practice THREE times a week for THREE hours. plus the damn chinese composition, that's FOUR DAYS taken up! plus my guitar lessons at plaza sing which were supposed to be on tuesday have to be moved to thursday already. so FREAK! i DON'T have a life. and then next saturday there's SEC ONE ORIENTATION THINGIE. ohsofreak! i might as well just stay in school already. i bet secondary three is just gonna get WORST! i haven't slept properly in ages! arghhh! yea. including the holidays. 4 hours of sleep. HEH. i feel so tired..
ohgawd.. just make me die already! :\

blahblahblah

2006-01-04T19:42:00.000+08:00

just finished a whole bunch of holiday homework that ofcourse i haven't done. :\ the things laziness does to me. heh. and my diskette isn't working again! stupid thing! daddy doesn't like me going all history on him. HAHA. russian history. daddy understands. lols. still left with my chinese holiday homwork though. and my maths homework. hahas. nevermind. still have 2 hours. more than enough. LOL.

life's so uneventful and boring now. hahas. 9 more weeks of school. ENDURE! then it'll be the first term holidays! wonderful! my maid's currently listening to her mp3 and singing. HEH. oh. she stopped. hahas. now alyssa's bugging me to listen to the maha bodhi version of spirited away. dang. they're damn good la! *jealous*

someone's calling me a lian. i don't like being called a lian. i'm NOT a lian. NEVER will be one. GET THAT FACT STRAIGHT. or seriously. i'll just dump my nasty temper on you! and it isn't pretty. not at all.

okays. don't feel like blogging anymore. heh. taa.

school life:))

2006-01-03T17:45:00.000+08:00

hello hellos:)) school's back already. blah. kinda boring though. hahas. i feel old. because my class is 2/o. when said, it sounds like: too old. -.- it's so.. don't know how to describe. HAHA. i tell you, i got a shock when i saw msrahayu step into the classroom after assembly. i was about to start tearing due to my uncontrollable laughter already! hahas. when she said she wasn't our form teacher. you couldn't imagine my joy! HAHA! i mean. she's MAD! lols =X after that. she said mrtoh was our form teacher. i almost fell off my seat! he then came in and said he was only going to be our form teacher for ONE MONTH! because mdmnur is still away or something! mdmnur's my form teacher last year too! she just gave birth to a baby boy. hahas. but mrtoh's funny la. he let us choose our own seats! YAY! i'm still seating with RENADARLING! :)) I LOVE RENA AND SHE LOVES ME! mrtoh kept cracking jokes this whole morning la! even when introducing ourselves. it was so hilarious. i laugh until stomach pain already! then our history teacher mscheang. she's such a BORING person i tell you! i almost fell asleep when she started class today! she's so siao! first day start class already. lols. so here's my list of teachers!

form teacher: mdmnur/ mrjohnnytoh and msrahayu agustina
character education: same as above
homeroom: same as above
reading period: same as above
jogging period: crazyteacherswholovetowatchusdierunning. heh.
pe: mspoon! AGAIN! idon'tlikeher. she=mean person!
mother tongue: mdmer. dunno who that la.
english: mrslow-tan
science: msthang. funkayye:))
literature: mstan. HAHA! same surname:))
design and tech: mrjohnnytoh and mrsnoelinelee.
geography: mrslow-tan. again.
home econs: mrsdorisfoong *sniggers* and mschng
art: mdmnur and msrahayu *laughs uncontrollably!*
maths: msng.
music: mschye. muahahs!

i think those are about it. lols.i think i don't know half the teachers. HAHA! so cool la! we having homeroom this year! or smth like that la. hahas. i think i'll stop here. gotta go do hmwk. TAA DARLINGS:))

NARNIA:))

2005-12-28T19:27:00.000+08:00

HELLO DEARIES! i'm back to update:)) i swear. people like disturbing my sleep! :\ waited at least 2 hours for SOMEBODY to sms me and that SOMEBODY FELL ASLEEP! -.- i wanted to die. heh. i tell you i almost fell off my bed! and then you can wake me up at 5:45 in the morning with a sms that says : "omg. i fell asleep.." wahh. i almost want to bang my head on the wall already. i had less than 4 hours of sleep that night okay! after smsing for a while, i went back to sleep. only to get woken up at 8 by alyssa! with an sms again. this time it said : "can i come to your house at 9? my house having renovation." and so qiao. my house also having renovation. then don't know why, we ended going to the library at 9:15. so early in the morning la! and the library wasn't even open when we got there!?! so nonsense. heh! then alyssa decided to call bibi and wake her up by asking her to come down to the library too! alyssa then suggested we go watch THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA: THE LION, THE WITCH AND THE WARDROBE. so we went to suntec to watch it after arguing over where to go. hahas. it was the 2:10 show. i tell you, i'm in love with that show okays!! i want to watch it again!! anyone wanna go with me? hahas. i shan't give away the story here la. but this show is really great! not to forget peter the YUMMILY DELICIOUSLY DELECTABLE ALMOST EDIBLE GUY! hahahas. *stares dreamily* he's so handsome!!!! hahas. i like mr tumsun too! the half meh meh half person guy! issit a meh meh? lols. the subtitles said yang so is goat or sheep or whatever right? hahahas. he's so adorable la! i like the part where he shook lucy's hand! so cute! and the way lucy goes "i don't know." it's so drama. i LOVE it la! hahas.

enough about narnia. don't wanna ruin the fun. hahas. today had choir. yupps. it was the usual. just sing sing sing. hahas. i tell you mschye likes to make me paiseh in the wierdest kind of ways la! hahas. and well. i don't wanna type it here. hahas. you know mschye is actually bringing the commitee members for pizza at 12 noon tomorrow after the dunno what thing at school la! and guess what! i'll be in malacca! so UNFAIR! bleah. when something nice happens in choir, i'm never there. oh this is so not fair. blah. i'll be leaving for malacca tomorrow till saturday for those of you who still didn't know. yupps. don't miss me yea? (not like you would or anything. hahas.) i think i'll end here. seeya darlings on saturday night when i come back! or rather sunday la. hahahas. TAA DARLINGS:))

`and i hope you always stay the same
cos there's nothing bout you i would change:)
iloveyou.

tell me why?..

2005-12-26T11:03:00.000+08:00

i know it's christmas and i shouldn't be feeling the way i am la. but i can't help it can i? you know, thinking back to my primary five and six years, i'd remember this girl* who dated la. only to end up breaking up. tell me. is it worth it to date so young? i don't know.. i really don't know la.

maybe you* would just say that i'm insecure or something la. maybe i am. i'm insecure about so many things that i'd rather just stay home and keep everything thing to myself instead of going out and feeling all insecure about this and that.. you said that you talk to me in a different way? i don't really think so at all.. i'd see the same words repeated to every girl you talk to. so am i to believe what you say? or what i see? i think you're getting sick and tired of me arguing with you huh.. maybe i should just ignore you altogether and just concentrate on other things instead.. did you mean every single word you said to me? or were they just sweet nothings you told every other girl? i really don't know.. are you really a big flirt as he* said? so who am i to trust now? everything is contradicting the other.. i know this whole thing is just gonna end as you saying that you don't want to leave me and that you don't want me to leave you either.. but is that really the truth? guess i'll never really know.. call me an insecure biatch, but i don't care.. i just want my answers.. well maybe i will care if it came out of your mouth.. but.. ahh.. nvm..

i don't even know why i'm blogging about something so personal.. i must really be going outsane already.. HEH!

*names are not mentioned due to their privacy.

boring christmas?

2005-12-25T22:03:00.000+08:00

today is christmas. (like you didn't already know la!) had to wake up at 6. and i slept at like 1 plus cause i was busy smsing. HAHA. so tired. arrived at church a few minutes after 7 to the warm ups to get ready to sing for THREE services all morning. i think i lost my voice already. ROFL! i seriously went totally out of tune for the third service at 12 la! cause i was freezing inside the chapel and i didn't have my jacket. then didn't LITERALLY warm my vocal chords and so, my voice couldn't come out and i sounded like a screeching chicken! HAHA! how amusing it must have been for you guys. hahahas.

after service. wished a bunch of people merry christmas! so fun! and like i recieved a christmas prezzie from someone totally unexpected. i never thought he'd actually decide to get me one. so i feel guilty for not getting him one too! :

joshua toh!
so sorry i didn't get you a prezzie! i'll get you one when i go to malacca! thanks a bunch for that purple candle! it's really PRETTY! :)))

after wishing everyone a merry christmas, hoho(daniel) asked me to join him and a bunch of ppl for lunch! hahas. ended up going to great world. after that went to town. hoho's such a nice guy la! he treated me to iced cocoa at starbucks coffee. i gave him 10 bucks and he like, returned it and paid with his own money! and like he bought me CHOCOLATE! so nice la he! i didn't spend a single cent today la!

hoho!
thanks a bunch for the drink and chocolate! :)) you're such a sweet and nice guy! =DDDDDD MERRY CHRISTMAS!

well. i can't blog anymore. mummy scolding. so i shall leave now. hahas. TAA DARLINGS!! :))

`don't you think we're drifting apart?

'tis the season to be jolly?..

2005-12-24T14:32:00.000+08:00

christmas is here again. just had christmas lunch with daddy, mummy and little sis. nothing's better than a little homecooked christmas lunch! :)) it's just times like this that i really treasure. cause there's no fighting or anything. just a family sitting together eating. decided to top off the lunch with red wine. hahas. been a long time since i last drank it. daddy says i can't get drunk cause i gotta sing for christmas service tonight so decided to add 7-up raspberry into the red wine. nice combi. hahas. it tastes.. sweet! and a little bitter after that. hahas. whee~ feeling fuzzy and warm all over now. hahas. such a nice feeling. teehees.

and my tagboard is like.. DEAD! hahas. so deaddddddd.. quick go revive it all you people! =DDDDDD mummy's nagging me off the computer already. hahas. gotta go bathe and everything. going to sing for christmas service later. den maybe going for countdown to christmas. not sure if with friends or family though. hahas. and gosh! i gotta wear heels! i can't i can't! ohmymy! i mean, who can imagine me in heels! in heels! hahahas. and tomorrow gotta sacrifice my beauty sleep to go sing for the eight o clock christmas service tomorrow morning. hahas. *yawns* i'm still tired. bleah. pfft! okays. i'm gonna go disappear now! hahas. miss me everyone:))

`tell me youloveme..

ahh freak..

2005-12-22T15:54:00.000+08:00

God, what's wrong with me? i seriously don't know.. i'm not eating. i'm not sleeping. i'm not doing anything except mope around all day. ahh freak. i don't know what's wrong with me.. singing doesn't get my spirits up anymore.. maybe cause i'm too tired to sing or something.. i'm all smiles around you guys i know. but that's expected eh. who goes out with friends and give attitude right. so ofcourse i'm a smiles and bouncy-ing around them. like how daniel calls me a crazy piggy that's always so enthu and cheerful. HAH! that's the last of me man.. but, well, first impressions are important aren't they? ok. wait. why in the world am i talking about first impressions? i must be insane. wait. how can i be INsane when i'm not sane. how can insane be the opposite of sane when insane is in sane which means that i am in sane. which technically means i'm sane. so by right i'm supposed to be outsane? ohwow. i bet i'm confusing you guys. cause i'm all confused too. wait. i'm starting to babble already. maybe i should get some sleep. nah. that would proof no help. i'll just lie in bed and start imagining things or something. wait. i do that even when i'm not trying to sleep. HAH! okay. it's positive that i'm insane. wait no. outsane i mean. ahh freak. i'm starting to talk to myself. i must be really going outsane. HAHA! that's normal news. you people think i'm crazy which practically means insane. no. i mean outsane. yes. i think i'm boring you readers with this post that practically nothing but mindless talking from me to me. wait. that doesn't make sense. oh freak it. i don't care. anyone care to drop by and tell me what's wrong with me if you figure it out. cause seriously, i don't know. bye.

dream a dream:)

2005-12-20T16:34:00.000+08:00

"The beauty of a dream is that it’s a dream, something you can hold in your heart forever.."

so would you just let me dream a dream? random thought la! the more i look at that quote, the more i think it's true. who could steal your dreams right? they don't even know what you dream about in the first place unless you tell them right? hahas. it's been nice dreaming in class and all. but i still have to study. so i can't dream anymore)): how sad. i will miss those days. actually, this post is just mindless blabbering cos i seriously don't know what i'm babbling on about. LOL! and i updated my friendster profile like a million trilliance times today la! and my music video on the profile is crash and burn by savage garden! and the video is actually final fantasy! so cool la! i love it! actually half the video is kissing. -.- HAHA! i told you i have a fetish for kissing scenes! hahas. but this video is so romantic please! i envy the girl! her virtual reality boyfriend is HOT! i like his hair! HAHA! but i can only dream about them. cos they are NOT real. hahahas. did i mention the first guy i fell in love with was a final fantasy character? how cool is that! AHAHAAHAHHAHAAS! the first guy i love and he's not even human! MUAHAHS! did i mention that the guy in the video is super super duper ultra uber SWEET?? lols. well, now you know. HAHA! okay. me shall stop here with my mindless blabbering and not torture all you readers. HAHA! TAAA DARLINGS:))

going crazy

2005-12-19T15:40:00.000+08:00

ever since the day you went away
and left me lonely and cold
my life just hasn't been the same, oh baby no
when i looked into your eyes
the moment that i let you go
i just broke down

baby if i ever get the chance to be with you again
i'm gun' sacrifice
cos the feeling that i feel within
no other man would ever make me feel so right
it's nice, to smile when i get your phone call at night
but i'd rather have you here with me, right next to me, i miss the way you hold me tight

i gotta let you know i feel so weak without your touch
i never thought that i could ever love a man so much
i gotta let you know i think that we are destiny
for you, i'd crossed the world
for you, i'd do anything

that's right baby
i'm going crazy
i need to be your lady
i've been thinking lately
that you and me
yes we can make it
just ride with me
roll with me
i'm in love with you, baby

that's right baby
i'm going crazy
i need to be your lady
i've been thinking lately
that you and me
yes we can make it
just ride with me
roll with me
i'm in love with you, baby

everytime that i tell you what i feel
from the moment that i met you it's been so damn real
my heart seems to skip another beat
everytime we speak
i can't believe i feel so weak

tell me that you really need me
and you want me
and you miss me
and you love me
i'm your lady
i'll be around waiting for you
put it down, be the woman for you

i'm falling, so deep for you
i'm crazy over you, i'm calling
calling out to you, what am i gonna do?
it's true, no fronting
it's you ain't no other
i can no longer go on without you
i'll just break down

i gotta let you know i feel so weak without your touch
i never thought that i could ever love a man so much
i gotta let you know i think that we are destiny
for you, i'd crossed the world
for you, i'd do anything

that's right baby
i'm going crazy
i need to be your lady
i've been thinking lately
that you and me
yes we can make it
just ride with me
roll with me
i'm in love with you, baby

that's right baby
i'm going crazy
i need to be your lady
i've been thinking lately
that you and me
yes we can make it
just ride with me
roll with me
i'm in love with you, baby

going crazy; natalie cole

limegreen is just simply gorgeous don't you think?
<33

not here...

2005-12-19T12:34:00.000+08:00

you're not here with me.. )):

2005-12-08T08:56:00.000+08:00

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

isn't limegreen just gorgeous?

boredom.

2005-12-06T17:19:00.000+08:00

In no particular order, list down 3 people you talk to online, 4 people you see at school, 2teachers, 3 people you love going out with and 3 people in your sms inbox.
1.joseph:))
2.yinxue
3.caleb!
4.sarena ahmad =D
5.evangeline!!
6.soliel
7.rena!
8.mrsgeh!
9.lin laoshi!
10.alyssa:))
11.amanda
12.dionne!
13.andrew
14.jeremy!
15.grace

So what do you think of number 4?
i love her!! :))

How would you feel if number 4 slapped you on your face?
i'll smack her ass!

How nice is number 6?
okayokay lah!

On a scale of 1-10, rate how good looking number 5 is.
TEN! my sexxaye senior!!

Will you ever fall for number 11?
EWWWW! NO WAY!

Honestly, if number 8 met with an accident, what would you do?
ohmy! i'll cry and cry and cry!

What sport would you play with number 12
i have no idea!! shaking our asses perhaps! if that's considered a sport. HAHA!

What if number 1 got a boyfriend?
he's a GUY! and certainly not GAY! hahas!

Do you hate number 9?
NONONO!

How much do you like number 2?
i LOVE my dearest senior! HAHA!

Will 13 and 7 make a good couple?
AHHH! NONONO! NOWAY!

Would 14 one day kill you?
it could happen! HAHA!

Who do you like more? 3 or 10?
erhm.. i love both of them the same?? HAHA!

get five people to do this thing.
AMANDA LIU!
evangeline liew
caleb kay
jeremy lim. HAHA!
SARENA AHMAD!!

2005-12-02T10:48:00.000+08:00

on account of dear dear SARENA! hahas. i shall finally update! LOL. nothing much has been happening. so uneventful and boring. hahas. went to fuji ice palace for god knows what reason on wednesday i think. hahas. spent the time there laughing at people who fell onto their asses! BWAHAHAHAHAHAAS!! it was fun lah! hahas. than went home around 5+ i tink. yupps. going out next tuesday to watch movie again!! FINALLY. staying at home is killing me please! im so bored with nothing to do except hmwk! which i haven't even started on much less completed. hahas. 2 more weeks until youth camp! YAYNESS! at least i'll be with friends. hahahas. 4 more days till amanda, my talking on the phone for hours partner, comes back from taiwan!!! YAY!! this post is just mindless blabbering for i do not know what im talking about. hahas! switching from one subject to another. LOL!! YINXUE DOES REALLY NICE JELLYFISH FLASH!! hahas. jellyfish abuse! get the link from me if you wanna watch. LOL!!! i have nothing to do again today. lols!! no one to sms, no one to call, can't leave the house, and SOMEONE WHO WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ONLINE HOURS AGO STILL ISN'T ONLINE!! *PIK PIAK!* slap you lah!! make me wait so long. im so bored!!! *sticks out tongue* and i've gotten a new blogskin!! YAY ME!! *cheers and claps like an insame maniac* hahas. i like the picture x) hahas. i have a fetish for kissing pictures! LOL!!! is this long enough for you sarena?? lols!! i think it is. hahahas. i shall take my leave!!
TAAA DARLINGS!!

p.s. I MISS YOU TOO SARENA!!!

moviespree~

2005-11-24T09:12:00.000+08:00

yesyesyes.
i haven't been updating much lately.
didn't feel like it. lols.
yupps.
went to watch harry potter last saturday night at suntec!
ohman! it was damn sad please!
i cried!! hahahas.
i can't believe cedric died so fast. it's like "avada kedavra" and BOOM! he's dead!
so fast!!! i was like still in shock! LOL.
i like the way argus filch runs! it's like damn cute please!
and he danced with his cat, mrs norris, at the prac for yule ball!
super funny! hahahas.
yupps.
went to watch exorcism of emily rose yesterday after choir. yupps.
i was damn scared please!
actually, just freaked out by what happened to her.
it's so disgusting the way they torture her.
it's like so sad loh!
but i didn't cry!
hahahahas.
it was damn freaky the part where they showed the exorcism.
she was like screaming like mad. it freaks me out!!
and den she was like lucifer the last demon possesing her.
then i was like wthell.
hahahahas.
and one of them was judas.
so dumb!!!
hahahahas.
mostly it was the shock that scared me lah. the scary faces.
LOL.
i'm easily scared! ECK!
yupps. gonna watch a movie sometime soon again x)
but dunno when and what to watch yet lah.
lols.
yupps. that's about it.
tata darlings:))

so unfair!!! >.<

2005-11-17T14:09:00.000+08:00

This is like so unfair lah!!!
kaywei's changing class to 2C next year!
AHHHHHHHHH!!!
class will be so dead without her lah!!
BLEAH!
some more 2C is the oh so geeky class loh!
no offense or anything hor!
i will miss 1O '05!!!
i hate this! so many problems!
kaywei!! i don't care! we gonna take many many pictures first thing next year!!
oohhhlaaalaaa~
hahahas.
TATA!

here with me)):

2005-11-17T12:53:00.000+08:00

Here With Me
Michelle Branch

It's been a long, long time since i looked into the mirror.
I guess that i was blind,
Now my reflection's getting clearer.
Now that you're gone things will never be the same, again.

There's not a minute that goes by every hour of every day.
You're such a part of me but i just walked away.
Well, I'm not the same girl you used to know.
I wished i said the words i never showed.

I know you had to go away, i'd died just a little.
And i feel it now, you're the one i need.
I believe that i would cry just a little.
Just to have you back now, here with me.
Here with me.

You know that silence is loud when all you hear is your heart.
And i wanted so badly just to,
Be a part of something strong and true.
But i was scared and left it all behind.

I know you had to go away, i'd died just a little.
And i feel it now, you're the one i need.
I believe that i would cry just a little.
Just to have you back now, here with me.
Here with me.

And i'm asking.
And i'm wanting you to come back to me.
Please?

I never will forget that look upon your face.
How you turned away and left without a trace.
But i understand that you did what you had to do.
And i thank you.

I know you had to go away, i'd died just a little.
And i feel it now, you're the one i need.
I believe that i would cry just a little.
Just to have you back now, here with me.

I know you had to go away, i'd died just a little.
And i feel it now, you're the one i need.
I believe that i would cry just a little.
Just to have you back now, here with me.
Here with me.
Here with me...

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

nice song really.
give it a try:))

shopping and icecream

2005-11-17T11:16:00.000+08:00

i'm going to smile like nothing's wrong,
talk like everything's perfect,
act like it's all a dream,
and pretend it's not hurting me...

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

anyone up for some shopping and icecream?
call me up:))
i need to get my mind off things and go splurge!
lets go partayye like nothing's wrong:))
yesyes. 91391538..
call call call. i wanna get out and about!!
:))

VEXED!!

2005-11-16T19:45:00.000+08:00

i'm so vexed really!
it's eating me up from inside...
all this crazyness and madness you see me as on the outside, really is all fake.
i mean, after all these troubles you honestly think i'd be so hyped?
think again lah.
it shows you don't know me and i don't want you to understand me either.
jumping off a building is so much easier...
i wish i didn't give you my no. it was a wrong friendship right from the very beginning.
i pray earnestly for someone to kidnap me, break me and then kill me!
at least it isn't suicide.
it was murder.
heh. i realised i've been even more hyped when i talk these days.
hahas.
the eyes are windows to the soul of a person.
can you honestly look me in the eye and say i'm full of happiness?
the sparkles gone from my eyes.
i don't tink it was even there from the start huh.
the only meal i've ever eaten these few days is only dinner.
and normally, i don't even finish it.
HAHAHA!
starve myself to death.
seems like a really great idea to me!
the world is such a cruel place.
if NAFA dance would accept me, i tink i'll dedicate my whole life to dance.
i don't need you or you or you.
all i need, is me!

-Cheerios!

BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY:))

2005-11-16T13:07:00.000+08:00

Big Girls Don't Cry
(Medley)

Oo wah. Oo wah.
Big girls don't cry!
Oo wah. Oo wah.

Why do fools fall in love?
Why do birds singing so gay?
And lovers await the break of day?
Why do they fall in love?

Why does the rain fall from up above?
Why do fools fall in love?
Why do they fall in love?

Love is a losing game.
Love can be a shame.
We know of a fool, you see,
For that fool is me.
Tell me why?
Tell me why?

You ain't nothin' but a hound dog,
Cryin' all the time.
You ain't nothin' but a hound dog,
Cryin' all the time.
Well, you ain't never caught a rabbit and you ain't no friend of mine.

When they said you was high classed,
Well, that was just a lie.
You know they said you was high classed,
Well, that was just a lie.
Well, you ain't never caught a rabbit and you ain't no friend of mine.
Well, you ain't never caught a rabbit and you ain't no friend of mine!

Big Girls Don't Cry.
Big Girls Don't Cry!

Woh, yes wait a minute Mister Postman.
Wait, Mister Postman.

Please, Mister Postman, look and see,
Is there a letter in your bag for me?
'Cause it's taking such a long time
For me to hear from that boy of mine.

There must be some word today
From my boyfriend, so far away.
Please Mister Postman, look and see,
If there's a letter, a letter for me.

Wait a minute, wait a minute.
Woh, you better wait a minute.
Please, please, Mister Post man!
Deliver the letta' da' sooner the betta'.

Big Girls Don't Cry!
Big Girls Don't Cry!

Big girls, they don't cry-y-y-y.
Big girls, don't cry-y-y.
Don't cry-y-y.

Big Girls Don't Cry!

It's my party and i'll cry if i want to,
Cry if i want to,
Cry if i want to.
You would cry too if it happened to you!

Nobody knows where my Johnny has gone,
But Judy left the same time.
Why was he holding her hand,
When he's supposed to be mine?

It's my party and i'll cry if i want to,
Cry if i want to,
Cry if i want to.
You would cry too if it happened to you!

It's my party and i'll cry if i want to,
Cry if i want to,
Cry if i want to.
You would cry too if it happened to...
Big girls don't cry!
You would cry too if it happened to you!
YEAH!!!

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

doesn't this song just rock?
heh!!
we are all fools:)))

BOOHOOHOO ):

2005-11-15T14:41:00.000+08:00

He was everything, everything that i wanted.
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
All of the memories so close to me just fade away.
All this time you were pretending, so much for my happy ending.

-Avril Lavigne

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

SARENA!!!
i do not allow you to go to ~~DUNMAN HIGH~~!!!
BOOHOOHOO! )):
den leave me alone at cedargirls!
anyway! cedargirls is SOOOOO much better!!
i don't care if you got accepted hor!!
you'd better stay or i smack your buttock!!
understand?
*sarena nods her head*
GOOD GIRL!!! =X
hahahas.
see i dedicated a whole post to you lehs!
quick! thank me thank me!!!:))
goodbye -

the heart is a lonely hunter -

2005-11-15T12:08:00.000+08:00

i came across this book online.
the sypnosis really touched me. and well, like every person who loves to read, i would want it loh.
heh.
maybe christmas present? ok lah. i'll look for it myself.
it's called The Heart is a Lonely Hunter by Carson McCullers.
yea. you guys could like go take a look at the book or something.
it's touching really.
yea. my only comfort are books now.
get me more!!!
i'll love you!!! heh.
yea. nothing much to blog today lah.
so i'll leave now.
goodbye -

broken~

2005-11-14T16:51:00.000+08:00

Broken
Seether feat. Amy Lee

I wanted you to know that i love the way you laugh.
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away.
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well.
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain...

Cause i'm broken
When i'm lonesome.
And i don't feel right
When you're gone away.

The worst is over now, and we can breathe again.
I wanna hold you high and steal my pain away.
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight.
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain...

Cause i'm broken
When i'm open.
And i don't feel like
I am strong enough.
Cause i'm broken
When i'm lonesome.
And i don't feel right
When you're gone away.

Cause i'm broken
When i'm open.
And i don't feel like
I am strong enough.
Cause i'm broken
When i'm lonesome.
And i don't feel right
When you're gone away...

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

third post of the day.
i'm feeling really tired.
been crying alot lately.
it seems i cry more during the holidays.
my eyes are worn out. i'm gonna go sleep after i bathe.
this song is nice ain't it?
i feel like shat now.
thanks daddeee. for your advice earlier.
thanks much:))
i'll smile the day away. though the tears keep falling..
goodbye -

leaving your life.

2005-11-14T12:47:00.000+08:00

don't make it anymore difficult than it already is.
just let me leave your life. it'll make your life much more easier.
i know i'm being unfair to you and all as you said, but hey. it's easier without me in your life.
lets just hope that one day, i'll be totally erased off from your memory.
just forget that we've ever met and nothing happened.
go on with your life as usual.
you don't need me.
bye honey. thanks for the beautiful memories.

the cow ain't holy honey. it's bloody.

2005-11-14T11:38:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired of being here,
suppressed by all my childish fears.
but if you have to leave,
i wish that you would just leave...

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

a supposedly nice day has just turned suckayye.
like wthell lah.
everything that happens in this bloody world is my fault!
yes my fault! mine and mine alone.
just peachy. i wished i had drank more last night when i had the chance.
everyone's going around with the nonsense shat of "you're underaged".
i'd have you know that though i'm underaged, i hold my liquor better than you honey.
where's the icecream when you bloody need it.
i dun wanna go shopping anymore. all go away and leave me alone.
shopping shopping shopping.
money money money.
relationships relationships relationships.
the three things that likes to taunt my life huh.
the root to all my problems and quarrels with parents.
"no! that one not nice! i say buy this so buy this"
yea. you said you gave me a choice to choose. well. i dun tink so.
"oie. 10 bucks enough for you for one whole week already lah! say summore i cut!"
i know earning money ain't easy. but taking your stuff out on me, that's despicable.
relationships.
fuck off of them lah.
they bring you nth but trouble. want them for what. heartbroken liaos. come find ppl to whine and grime.
it's sick really.
all these shat! as if i ain't stressed enough. bloody hell.
bring me to the beach. i wanna scream my lungs out.
fuck this shat!

2005-11-11T16:47:00.000+08:00

you ain't nothin' but a hound dog,
cryin' all the time.
you ain't nothin' but a hound dog,
cryin' all the time.
well you ain't neva caught a rabbit and you ain't no friend of mine.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

ooohlaalaa...
choir was fun today. but i was really tired. *yawns*
we were dancing for most of the practice. hahas.
it was super funny.
we had to shake our asses!!
it's like super fun loh!! hope i pass auditions! cos i really wanna do this song!!!
i have a new reason to go shopping!!!
BUY RETRO CLOTHES FOR CHOIR PERFORMANCE NEXT YEAR!!
haahahas.
going to go shopping next week with belle and company!
yupps.
yesterday went to plaza sing.
was playing hide and seek with joseph. *don't ask*
hahahas. it was super funny.
i kept running away. HAHAHA!!
and joseph got me a february bearbear thingie. hahahas.
it's PURPLE!
after that met jeremy daddeee outside macs at plaza sing.
den we went walk walk. from plaza sing walk to wisma.
den walk back and bought my mehmeh!!!!
hahahas. i love my mehmeh!!
then saw joseph again. hahahas. den went home after that.
lols.
at least i wasn't rotting at home lah
so it was ok loh.
hahahas.
yupps. i love my mehmeh and bearbear!!!
THANK YOU DADDEEE AND JOSEPH FOR THE NICENICE STUFF TOYS!!!! *SMUACKS!*
yesyes. i shall jet now!!
goodbye:))

i feel like kicking your ASS!

2005-11-09T19:29:00.000+08:00

lets just say i'm not really happy with what i've just seen.
and i dun like mentioning names unless it's for no harm stuff incase i get sued and yadayadayada.
i tink you get my drift lah.
but you know. i shan't waste my breath talking about them.
they're not worth it.
those people were actually friends of a close friend of mine.
i feel damn betrayed now.
it sucks ok.
i can't stand it.
i'm having my trust in my friends broken one by one.
DAMN!
i feel so ARGGHHH!!!!
so screwed up.
all say care for me.
come out what.
i'd rather be an outcast then have friends like these.
wait!
YOU BLOODY FREAKS DON'T EVEN COUNT AS FRIENDS.
HAH!
i've been so foolish to actually trust people.
i don't know why though.
why am i so stupid.
such materialistic things as looks.
can determine if your trust will actually get broken.
aren't i so right.
that was directed at a certain someone if you didn't know.
i feel like clawing your eyes out and pouring acid all over you.
i feel so damn betrayed.
so...DAMNIT!

nobody's home

2005-11-09T16:37:00.000+08:00

Nobody's Home
Avril Lavigne

I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday

And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
the same mistakes again

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs,
Where she belongs.

She wants to go home,
But nobody's home.
It's where she lies,
Broken inside.
With no place to go,
No place to go.
To dry her eyes,
broken inside.

Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reason why

You've been rejected
And now you can't find
What you've left behind

Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs,
Where she belongs.

She wants to go home,
But nobody's home.
It's where she lies,
Broken inside.
With no place to go,
No place to go.
To dry her eyes,
Broken Inside.

Her feelings she hides,
Her dreams she can't find,
She's loosing her mind,
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place,
She's loosing faith,
She's fallen from grace,
She's all over the place.
Yeah.

She wants to go home,
But nobody's home.
It's where she lies,
Broken inside.
With no place to go,
No place to go.
To dry her eyes,
Broken inside.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

ever wondered why i like this song so much.
hahas.
i myself don't know..
i click well with sad songs.
send me more:))

crazy quiz:))

2005-11-08T15:48:00.000+08:00

sad.

2005-11-07T15:33:00.000+08:00

Sad
Tosog:))

why are you so happy,
when i feel so sad?
when the earth is shaking,
were you still in bed?
do you care when you live in some safe haven land?
will you be sitting comfortably watch the news at 9:30?

why are you still smiling,
when i feel so sad?
when the waves were raging,
did you count the dead?
do you care when you live in some safe haven land?
will you be sitting comfortably watch the news at 9:30?

what could you do?
what could you possibly do?
what could you do?
fight for some rights or some military coup?

you don't care, cos you think you live in neverland.
you will be sitting comfortably watch the news at 9:30.

why are you so happy,
when i feel so sad?

it impacted me somehow:))

you??

2005-11-06T20:36:00.000+08:00

I HATE YOU!
yet somehow, i still manage to love you...
you brought me joy!
but you were also the one who made the TEARS FLOW DOWN MY FACE.
I WANT TO FORGET YOU.
but your face just never seems to leave...
you thought me how to love.
BUT YOU ALSO THOUGHT ME HOW TO HATE.
you were the root of ALL MY MISERABLE SADNESS,
yet at the same time, you were also the cause of all my happiness.
how can i love you so much?
when all i ever wanted to do was to HATE YOU!

ENLIGHTEN ME.

BABY I'M BACK!

2005-11-03T22:08:00.000+08:00

BABY I'M BACK!
WOOHOO!
MISSMEMUCH!
LOL.
SHALL BLOG MORE ABOUT IT TOMORROW!
TATA!
*WAVES*

i'm leaving)):

2005-10-31T17:12:00.000+08:00

i'm leaving for desaru tomorrow.
hurhur.
i don't wanna leave.
i'm down to the pits!
cheer me up! )):
no sms, no msn.
how am i to communicate with you guys??
)):

this is how i feel )):

2005-10-31T14:57:00.000+08:00

Far Away

Nickelback

This time, This place

Misused, Mistakes

Too long, Too late

Who was I to make you wait

Just one chance

Just one breath

Just in case there’s just one left

‘Cause you know,

you know, you know

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you’ll be with me

and you’ll never go

Stop breathing if I don’t see you anymore

On my knees, I’ll ask

Last chance for one last dance

‘Cause with you, I’d withstand

All of hell to hold your hand

I’d give it all

I’d give for us

Give anything but I won’t give up

‘Cause you know,

you know, you know

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you’ll be with me

and you’ll never go

Stop breathing if I don’t see you anymore

So far away

Been far away for far too long

So far away

Been far away for far too long

But you know,

you know, you know

I wanted

I wanted you to stay

‘Cause I needed

I need to hear you say

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I forgive you

For being away for far too long

So keep breathing

‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore

Believing

Hold on to me and never let me go

quiz hoppin' :))

2005-10-27T22:40:00.000+08:00

ORANGE:
You can have a really unique hair colour and
personality. You give everything for your goal
and not even friends are aloud in your way, you
stand up for what you believe in and let nobody
talk you out of things. Your motto is probably:
*Threw and out!* You might pass everything with
care and are blessed with a good memory, but
remember to not hurt somebodys feelings on your
way to the top! Overall, special and
intelligent!

COLOUR MEANS: sociable, practical, fulfilment and
satisfaction. But it is a mix with suppression
of feelings, be careful!

Jewel/Symbol: Star and Amber

Which Hair Colour Represents you Best? [With Anime pics!]
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Hippie: You are cool, because, well that is kind of
the definition. A lot of people think that
being a hippie is about saving the environment
and not eating meat. But that just is not so,
being a hippie is about really and truly
enjoying yourself, listening to good music and
maybe pissing your parents off a bit.

What High School label do you best fit into? 8 results!
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Your sorta gothic, your happy to spend time on your
own

What sort of person are you?(NOW WTIH PICS!!)
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You are misunderstood. People see you as a dark,
cold and uncaring person. But...you're not. So
many things have happened to you. You have alot
to worry about. Truth is, you need
someone. Someone to love, or just someone
to talk to. You love rock music and are just
as nice as everyone else. ^^

What Kind of Girl Are you? (Anime Pics o^_^o)
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THE UNKOWN: Your scared of what you can't see. When
your scared you cry and talk to your self or
try to make some sort of sound. Your even more
scared in the dark.

Whats your worst fear
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you r cool n popular.
ppl like to follow u. stay cool. good job.by the
way. dun be proud about it. sometimes being
humble is a good thing.

wat kind of person r u?(gurls onli)
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BUTTERFLY EYES

You have Butterfly
Eyes!
Positive Traits: Thoughtful,
Intelligent, Humble, Clever, Open
Minded
Negative Traits: Elitist,
Conceited, Apathetic, Cold, Sarcastic

Your eyes are the windows to your soul. What type of eyes do you have?
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You are a goth.Your dress, of course, is black.Good
for you.You make me proud.

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You chose black eyes.
You have a very angry personality. You refuse to
see the right side of people, and you can be a
bit arrogent, thinking you're better then other
people. If someone makes fun of you, or picks
on you, you'll bounce back, ready for a fight.
You probably have a violent, defensive
reputation.

The Eye color personality test
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February,
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent andclever. Changing personality.
Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and
humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach
goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when
restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive
and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but
does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things.
Loves making friends but rarely shows it.
Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing
dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment
and leisure. Romantic on the inside not
outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.
Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

What does your birth month reveal about you? (read memo)
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PALADIN

You are the Paladin, the
ultimate warrior for God. The Paladin
represents all that is good in the world.
Paladins fight evil at all costs. They do not
care for material pleasures of this world. They
have sworn their lives away to protecting the
innocent, avenging the victims of cruel
murders, and chasing after those who deserve
their punishments. The Paladin will do anything
to fulfill their duties. They will even
sacrifice themselves to save
another.

Color: White
Animal:
Dove
Gem: Diamond
Symbol:
Sword

Image:
http://www.deviantart.com/view/14400235/

Who would you be if you were a character in an epic fantasy? (beautiful pictures)
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your heart walks out of fire
you are bold, and energetic. you are fierce like
the tiger, yure element is fire

where does your heart walk out from?[ my frist quiz be nice]
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your Beauty is natural.you dont have to go out of
your way to make people like you, they just
do.your kind and caring and others love that
about you

what Beauty do you hold?(with anime pics)
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ahyes. was quiz hoppin' cos i was really bored and everything.
yupps.
i tink they're utter crap though.
HAH!
i'll end here.
ttfn.

soul calibur 2!

2005-10-26T19:59:00.000+08:00

hellos. yupps. i've been playing soul calibur 2 the WHOLE afternoon today.
if you didn't know, that's an xbox game:))
it's damn cool can! though i seriously sucked at it.
talim, she's some kind of priestess of the wind.
she's SUPER prettayye!
and she's 15!
ohmytian ok.

yupps that's her okay. super prettayye with those funkayye clothes:))
hahahas. and than have KILIK.
this super dee duper muscular guy who's like yummily deliciously delectable. ^.^
yums.
he's HOT.
at least for a video game character he is ;)

yupps. this is kilik.
that scar on his face is damn HOT!
but he's whole history is damn horrible lah.
blah.
ahhh. nvm. actually most of the good guys are damn hot in that video game.
LOL.
budden the bad guys are like...wierd creatures.
one even looked like a mummy!
hahahas.
so hilarious lah.
but the game is so darn difficult. i kept losing!
at the beginning stage summore.
so shao xing.
lols.
great. i'm in love with video game characters. hahas.
but it's kinda impossible to find someone alive that hot anyway.
a girl can dream can't she. hahahas.
he's abs are like. WOW!
hahas.
you wanna see more pics, go to:
www.soulcalibur.com
hahas. it rocks.
the video game rocks!
yay!
lalalalas.
i tink i'll stop here.
goodbye! :))

bored.

2005-10-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

yes. i'm back again with yet another post.
yes. i know all these posts bore you to death.
HAH!
today is just another ordinary boring day in school.
poker cards were not allowed and thus, i was bored to death for i do not own a stack of uno cards for pete's sake.
for the past few weeks, i've been looking for the curve cut FBT shorts.
couldn't find it.
and then.
shakila came and told me that JOO SENG WAREHOUSE has an office that sells FBT shorts.
i was so pissed. because i live OPPOSITE JOO SENG WAREHOUSE!
my first reaction was. ohmytian!
lol.
waste my time.
this morning at morning assembly.
well. of cos morning assembly. it couldn't jolly well be evening assembly in the morning right.
ohwait. they DON'T have evening assembly.
my dry sarcasm never fails to ammuse me:))
but that is beside the point.
too much sidetracking.
anyway, back to the morning assembly.
there was tons of announcement this morning. almost fell asleep lah.
then leong announced that she's leaving cedar to be the principal of anderson jc.
hell. just when i was starting to get used to her.
then she also announced that some teachers were leaving too. apparently, her some turned out to be so many lah.
nice estimation man.
she then went on to say that some crack pot principal from temasek sec was coming.
just peachy.
wow.
my sarcasm is so improving.
i just love it so much.
it makes me sound cold.
i love it!
i like being distant and cold.
i like being alone.
it allows me to DAYDREAM!
i love daydreaming. it allows me to fantasize about stuff that will NEVER happen.
yes.
was watching qing chu yu lan(shine on you).
it just ending.
that show is damn nice can!
ou yang shan is like damn shuave lah.
not that he's that hot anything.
on the contary, he's actually just average lah.
but he's TALL!
*runs to the corner and mumbles to self*
yes. i am SHORT!
if you got anything to say about it, think twice.
if you still gonna say it.
lets say, you're not gonna like what's gonna happen.
DO NOT ANNOY ME.
i'm trying to change my ways.
you annoying me ain't helping much.
someone should just get me a WHAT WOULD JESUS DO wristband or something.
hah.
gimme a break.
i'm stressed enuff.
damn. i like talking about sex. come talk to me. i love it!
it's like the most darn interesting topic to talk about lah.
hahahaas.
i like not having enuff sleep.
i like not eating.
because i hate these stuff.
i have no darn appetite.
no matter how long exams have passed or anything, my appetite ain't coming back. it's been like this for 3 years.
this shows why my friggin eye bags are still here.
and i look damn skinny and am short because i don't eat much.
i wanna take ice skating for my NYAA.
JEREMY. if i lose my way getting to the ice skating place thingie i call you arh.
hahahas.
you know on the paper they actually spelled roller blading as ROLLER BALDING!
hah!
roller balding.
what a laff.
it's so hilarious even my toes are laughing.
lols.
i think this post is long enough that you're already bored isn't it.
hah.
much love to all.
goodbye.

happiness?

2005-10-24T16:22:00.000+08:00

yes. this is my second post for today.
that just shows how effing bored i am.
but that's not the whole point on why i'm blogging again.
it's been bugging me last night.
somehow, i've totally forgotten about it until now.
you know how people always say i'm fortunate and anyhow?
well. do you even noe how many illnesses i have?
well maybe now it's under control.
but seeing as cedar loves doing sports, i just might have a relaspe again.
and because of these illnesses, i can't be a pilot.
i've been prone to getting colds since i was a kid.
i have an uber sensitive nose. it sucks.
i can't stand aircon.
i'll get colds.
and thus, my sister complains often cos i don't let her turn on the air con.
and because of this, i get sick often.
i have skin problem.
my skin ain't growing properly.
thus the scars.
and because of that, i can't do certain things like others can because if i touch grass, i'll get rashes. if i stay out in the sun for too long, i'll get rashes. that's also partly why i look darn skinny. cos my skin can't grow. darn. it's a genetic thingie.
you see. these two clash!
i can't take air con.
but i need air con in other not to scratch and get rashes all over again.
and because of that, i suffer.
do you even noe how hard it is to try and restrain yourself from scratching.
do you even noe how hard it is to cope with them. i go to a doctor so often when i was young that i still dread going there.
i also have weak lungs.
thus, i'm forced to take up swimming so that "i can built up my lungs".
but no. you don't listen to how much i suffer during these lessons.
the aching pain in my lungs whenever i try to reach up to your expectations.
i told you a million times i'm suffering. i cannot take it.
but you just shout back and scold me that you must carry on.
i've reached my limit. i can't go any faster.
you know i cry when i actually swim. the pain is so horrible.
and my breathing will come in harsh gasps.
and because of my weak lungs, i have asthma.
it isn't that bad now.
all these were there when i was a BABY!
a effing baby.
you know how much treatments i've got?
well no.
i used to have to go to the doctor so often just to get my breathing under control cos i kept getting asthma attacks.
it really sucked.
i'd be sick for days.
i'd be coughing and sneezing away.
well yah.
next time
think twice before thinking i don't suffer.
so go away ok.

erhm. dunno lah.

2005-10-24T13:46:00.000+08:00

been rather bored these few days. nothing to do.
i'm in love with jesse mccartney!
i love his songs lah! hahas.
hmms.
not really looking forward to going to school tomorrow.
another day in school is another depressing day.
at least at home, i'm alone and i don't have to pretend to be happy and everything.
yesyes. jeremy thinks i'm being to chirpy and he wants another mouth with his name at the links. one jealous person. *shakes head*
christmas carolling practice starts this saturday. not really in the mood for festive celebrations.
these occasions are just too happy man.
can't stand it.
shou bu liaos.
i love reading fanfictions:))
they're so innocent and cliched.
ok. nvm. that's not the point.
amanda thinks i'm mad.
prolly all the depression thing has gotten into my head.
haven't gotten over the habit of having that vicious weapon in my pocket 24/7.
don't come scolding me. i'll just turn a deaf ear. most prolly.
cos i'm somehow a lil sick of all the same talks that different people have been telling me.
they're all the same thing you know.
"stop doing it."
"it won't help."
"there are more unfortunate people out there."
i can't stand it okay.
i was only able to do some thinking at the previous choir prac cos yinxue, dionne and evan were at TAF camp. and i had no one to tok to lah.
somehow it did no help.
went to at least 5 world of sports yesterday to look for the "unflowery male deodorant". couldn't find it.
i swear all these world of sports are USELESS.
i'm so effing pissed.
it sucks.
i don't like this.
more choir practices.
why can't i just go overseas.
ohwait.
i just remembered.
i'm too poor to afford even cds much less airplane tickets.
yes.
i'm poor.
they say poor people are much more happier.
i resent that.
i'm poor.
i'm unhappy.
i'm depressed.
i want to die.
there.
dumb philosophies out there are for NOTHING!
ok. i shouldn't be getting angry. it's not good for health.
youth camp.
11th to 14th december.
am i doing the right thing in going?
i'm veh confused now.
can i just bang a wall and die please.
shan't talk any further incase i dampan your mood too.
so i shall just go away.
goodbye.

2005-10-22T11:39:00.000+08:00

You're a lollipop!! You're known for your coolness,
for you are a trend setter. You're a natural
leader, and are good under pressure. People
often seek you out for advice, for you have
great insight.

Which kind of candy are you?
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ohmytian lah. lollipop my ass man.
o wait. i am laughing my ass off.
HAHAHAHA!

MALU-ED

2005-10-21T21:24:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhh! i feel so malu-ed now! fell down at the mrt station just now loh. so paiseh!!
it must be my school shoes man. no more friction thingie cos yingxue didn't fall. neither did kaiyin. blah. i'm gonna buy new school shoes. me no care!
yes. sophia knows about my secret. lols.
not really a secret issit. so many people know loh.
i'm so tempted to do it again.
i'm very very down and put out.
VERY!
been playing with that vicious thingie all afternoon during choir practice. huihong*senior* thought i mad liaos. hehs.
teachers came in and decided to say no playing of poker cards. DAMN!
i'm really not in good mood.
i think i'm a very ye3 man2 person loh.
i keep making promises i know i can never actually suceed in keeping it.
i dunno why.
issit to reassure myself, or am i making it just to please you all.
because i know that if i don't promise, someway or another, you will make me make that promise.
don't come and tell me that hating yourself is gay.
then i think the three quaters of the world is gay man.
hehs.
i feel so damn screwed.
choir today was damn boring. my only company was that vicious thingie.
i felt like dying.
on the way to potong pasir mrt, yingxue threatened to kick me out to the road. and i told her i'll gladly let you do it. hehs.
auditions are coming soon, i so do not have the heart to even do well in it.
i don't feel like doing anything except dying.
even this post is HALF-hearted.
was talking to kaywei after choir cos i was waiting for sarena to finish her TAF camp.

kaywei: you aren't gonna *** again are you.
me: nah. infront of general office you want me die arh.
kaywei: laffs
me: besides, they will send me to intensive counselling if i do it here.

heh. those who know what i'm doing should know what i'm talking about.
lols.
sophia even sms-ed me after choir to tell me to stop doing it loh.
blah.
i promised her.
like i did with a whole bunch of other people.
but..i have no faith. i know that it will happen again.
dionne says i'm the kind of person that look like they will never do this kind of thing.
maybe that's a good thing, maybe that's a bad thing. don't really care.
whatever it is, i'll never garuntee that i will never do it again although i've promised.
i know that i will make alot of people disappointed, but i'm at my wits now.
i'm a person who cannot take alot of stuff like others can.
i'm a darn useless idiot.
a bai chi a hei chi, yada yada yada.
i keep telling myself.
i CANNOT cry.
i CANNOT cry.
damn frustrated.
i think i'll shall stop here. in case i start swearing like hell like i did this afternoon.
goodbye.

another day...

2005-10-19T18:04:00.000+08:00

yes. just came back from choir.
bought a new choir tee, size L. heh. it's darn BIG man. hahahas.
got back more results. really disapointed man.
ahwells. i didn't study. can't expect more. >.<
design & tech. = A1
home econs = A2
english = A2
history = A2
geography = A2 (i tink lah. 4got lerh.)
literature = B3
science = B4
higher chinese = C5
mathematics = C5
art = C5

yupps. i tink those are my EOY results.
darn, it so sucks.
my chinese improved by one grade. YAYNESS!!
hehs.
was freezing in choir today.
my teeth were chattering. =P
lame loh. if the new cedar jacket didn't make me look like a dumb yellow coloured traffic light, i'd actually wear it. lols.
i'm very tired now actually.
gotta pay evan 10:50 for the choir tee tomorrow. bleh. i broke liao lah.
den still have 2 bucks for choir fund.
and i still owe soliel 2 bucks cos sarena won amirah in stress.
ohman.
i'll bet on sweets next time.
LOL.
yes. i tink i'll just stop here:))
goodbye!

new skin.

2005-10-18T21:17:00.000+08:00

yupps. a new skin. i think i like this one better.
been really tiring lately.
i think that being tired was the only thing i've been mentioning these few days.
i'm feeling rather peachy.
the choir ain't going to germany no more. not even china.
but i understand. it is too near to their 'o' levels. i won't be selfish.
miss chye started by saying next year we gonna have practices 3 or 4 times a week.
oh heck. i'll be dead tired next year.
i feel very alone right now.
i feel like a textbook. only needed whenever we do stuff that involves it.
sorry textbook. i treated you like dirt.
and now i'm treated like dirt. great.

thank you evangeline for always being there for me when no one was.
i really really really appreciate it:))
i'm glad you like the pooh bear. =p
i can't imagine without you in the choir :((
you're leaving next year. i'm gonna cry.
you cannot forget me ok! hahahas.
if not i whack you!
you rock evan! i love you:))
i'll certainly miss you alot. kekeke.
yupps.

and jeremy.
must take care of yourself.
i know you're going through a rough patch.
but must jiayous!
don't make me worried ok.
darn! i sound like a mother. lols.
nutters.
anyway. try to eat and sleep at least a little ok.
yupps.

i dunno what to do.
i feel darn troubled.
my head feels like it's gonna burst.
although i don't show how i actually feel. the more i think, the more it seems that no one understands my character at all.
that no one even knows me.
even the least emotional song now can make me cry.
i'm not kidding.
there's a whole truckload of tears waiting to flow out.
only, i'm holding them back.
choir practice till 5:30 everyday just doesn't make it any better.
it makes me more tired.
i can't even type or speak coherrently now.
eye bags getting worst.
i'm dead beat.
even considered standing in the middle of the road junction so i'll just die immediately.
that's good..
by actually listening and helping people in depression, i'm sort of like telling that to myself too. wierd huh.
ahwells. guess i'll just stop here.
good night.
ttfn.

life.issues.

2005-10-16T21:46:00.000+08:00

it so seems that it's the time of the year where EVERYONE starts having issues isn't it?
so darn weared out.
i'm sick, i'm tired, i'm worn out. i can't even freaking sleep in peace anymore.
i tossed and turned in bed last night since 10 until 3 in the morning.
just spending the whole time staring into space.
i feel so darn overwhelmed.
i'm not even a bloody psychologist! (don't ask)
i'm so not cut out for counselling. not that i don't wanna help or anything. i wanna help. but not so many at a time!
as much as i would like to just break down and cry and wail out my troubles, i can't.
it's just like jenny grennley in the book teen idol by meg cabot.
go read the bloody book if you wanna noe what i mean cos i ain't bothering to explain it to you.
sometimes i find it amusing. how does he even put up a strong front when he's with people after all the shat he's been through.
i sound like bloody damn bitch from hell but i don't care!
imma bitch so what.
i like to bitch so just sod off if you ain't happy.
it's after the exams. i'm supposed to be RELAX!
it seems like i'm even more tense then before.
i'm starting to hear voices in my head ok.
i feel like i'm the one who needs counselling instead.
not that i'm trying to be self-centric or anything.
on the contary, i'd rather be the one that was never noticed.
i can't take it anymore.
even music doesn't sufice as any help at all.
all i do is grab my head and hear my voices in my head.
i think i'm going insane.
a taxi almost ran me down.
was cursing at it cos it stopped in time.
i wished it would of just taken me out of all these misery.
i swear i look like a panda.
i'm so afraid i'm gonna break my promises to caleb and evangeline.
i'm so darn afraid.
i dunno how much more of this shat i can take.
i really really really wanna end all this.
my only company now is my trusty old pen knife.
everyone else is just coming to me to thrust out all their problems.
but i don't blame you.
you just wanna let all your problems out just like i do.
but i prefer bottling up instead.
easier to die.
and there's choir for the whole week ok.
i'm gonna break soon.
but i'm holding it back.
don't wanna let it out.
sing sing sing.
all these problems was the whole reason as to why i've decided to back out of camy.
i can't handle anymore responsibility.
and i'm definitely in no shape to serve God right now.
i wish i weren't even born.
i sound so selfish right now.
i can't go on any further.
i'll start crying.
goodbye.

october holidays. haas.

2005-10-13T11:08:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!
flunked most of them. ahwells.
this whole week has been quite uneventful except for yesterday.
whole week has been holiday loh. like october holidays like that. hahahas.
well. went out with RENA, SARENA and AMIRAH yesterday to east coast.
JACINDA was supposed to come but her mum wouldn't allow. bleh.
told my dad to wake me up at 7:50 am he woke me up at 7:15 am. -.-
thus tried going back to sleep but to no avail. haas.
i then went to watch teevee.
after that i left house at 8:30 am. heavy traffic. thus, i was twenty minutes late in meeting RENA at SENGKANG MRT STATION.
SORRY RENA! hahahs.
she told me that people thought she was a beggar cos she was sitting on the floor with nothing but her rollerblades in hand. lols. so she decided to go sit on the chairs instead.
then we walked and walked to the bus stop at far far away land carrying our very very heavy rollerblades.
made a bet with rena the 27 will come next. hahahas. i won. lols.
took bus 27 until changi terminal one to change bus. the bus ride was boring and long.
rena was being crazy. she found this chocolate bar on her bus seat. then there weren't much ppl inside the bus cos they all left liaos. she den decided to throw it at the mobiletv thingie we were staring at. it hit the teevee and made a very loud 'PONG' sound. hahahs. surprising thing is. nobody bothered and we started laughing really loudly like crazy maniacs. hhahahs.
bus 36 came after. it stopped at terminal two then the bus driver went to shit. hahahas. took a good whole 10 minutes. being bored, me and rena started taking photos. those really blurry ones like ghost like that. hahahas. everyone was staring at us like we some kind of idiot or something. lols. den the bus driver came back with some people. we came to a conclusion that the woman who came up was a air stewardess cos she was very pretty. hahahas. the bus ride continued on for 30 mins +++
was darn bored. walk to mac with our heavy rollerblades. almost died. den we ate lunch there cos it was nearly 12. me and rena were 2 hours late. lols.
then we decided to blade to the rental shop so we could leave our bags there. then we went to blade. i sucked at it. bleh. then i saw amanda from six charity the tall tall one not amanda yeo. yupps. we said hi den left. lols.
decided to give up on my blading and went to rent a bike instead.
hahahs. this twin bike with two guys on it rode past us. they were very far away lah. decided to see if my bike skills go slack norts. so decided to see if i could catch up with them. hahahas.
of cos i did. i pass by them the black colour guy was like " ta ma de". hahahas. bad me was smirking all the way. lols.
went back to tell sarena that i have accomplished my task. hahahs. rena and amirah were being crazy. everytime someone scold them or talk to them they will go 'have a nice day' and then start laughing their asses away.
after getting tired of blading, we went to play with water at the beach. played awhile then decided to leave cos sarena's dad was coming and amirah and i wanted a lift to bedok mrt lohs. then we went our seperate ways and went home. o yes. we saw sarena's ex classmate from her primary school too. his name is called BOON TIONG i tink. hahhas. from raffles institution sec 1. sarena and him were staring at each other then dun wan to say hello. hahahhahas. lame. yupps. i tink that's how the day went. lols.
shall end here now. ttyl.

dreamer.

2005-10-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

it occured to me i'm so much of a dreamer person.
always indulging in fantasies one after another.
although knowing that in a world like this, it will never happen.
so materialistic...
it's like looking for perfect love knowing that it can't be found.
like insisting on doing something although knowing that it'll probably will fail no matter what.
like looking for a pin in a pile of haystack.
or like in spongebob, looking for a strand of hay among a whole pile of pins.
sometimes, i think disney is UNHEALTHY.
it's just feeding us with more lies about reality.
happy endings never occur in this world.
it's kinda impossible.
the nonsense about how 'love will find a way' and that you will always find your 'prince'.
just deluding little kiddies on what this world really is.
but somehow, knowing all this doesn't stop me from indulging in fantasies and disney's heartwarming shows that can only happen in shows.
i'm that much of a dreamer.
it scares me even.
dreaming of a perfect life.
ignorance is bliss.
somehow, my english teacher managed to twist these three words into something more.
she asked us: who are the most self-centered people on earth.
first reaction.
how would i friggin noe?
the answer was little kids.
why you ask.
because their ignorant.
everything is all about me me me.
nobody else.
it got me thinking.
it would be so nice to be that way isn't it.
to be pampered.
i know most of the times i'm self-centered.
i want this i want that.
but those are kids.
innocent little kids.
i'm not.
she den proceeded to say that our class had the most self-centered people.
i don't deny it.
nearly every teacher have given up on us.
we piss of teachers.
heck i give up on my studies even.
don't care anymore.
everytime they give us the suckiest teachers and expect us to do well.
ahwells.
that's life i guess.
i rather indulge in my fantasies every second of the day instead.
so much more pleasant.
to feel nothing other than happiness.
it'll be nice.
yups.
that's about it i guess.
ttfn~

museum of twits. HAH!

2005-09-30T17:14:00.000+08:00

hellos.
been a LONG time since i blogged.
exams have come and it's all study study study.
yea well.
but that's not what i'm blogging about loh.
museum of twits
yupps. a dumb excuse for a blog if you ask me.
but before i start offending anyone, i'd like to say that whatever that is written here is just my OPINION. NOT meant to OFFEND anyone. and therefore, do NOT sue me! if you DO NOT heed this disclaimer then well. IT'S NOT ANY OF MY BUSINESS! thank you((:

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

now on to the post.
somehow i think that their criticising of ah lians and others have gone too FAR!
i mean. even people taking photos at wisma and putting it on friendster is a CRIME!
WTF.
some people might agree, some might not.
but heck! i don't CARE about your FRIGGIN opinion about finding it amusing.
if it was YOU i don't think YOU would be LAUGHING at YOURSELF would you.
FUCK YOU!
they are INSULTING people and here you are finding it SO FUNNY.
I THINK NOT IF I HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY ABOUT IT!
i'm not gonna mention names. for all i know, i might just get sued.
just because someone cut their hand and took a foto of it to put on friendster, they had to be such a BUSYBODY and go take it and make fun of the person.
FIRST THING FIRST.
YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT WHY PEOPLE CUT!
YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT WHY THAT PERSON DID IT AND YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND!
JUST FUCK OFF AND MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.
FOR ALL I KNOW, I MIGHT GET MY HANDS ON YOUR PICTURES AND START INSULTING YOU TO FUCKING HELL.
now now.
i know i'm not supposed to swear but heck it.
i'm just TOO PISSED THAT A PERSON LIKE YOU WOULD FIND IT FUNNY.
YOU OF ALL PEOPLE.
FUCK!
i mean like WHO ARE YOU to use photoshop or paint and put words in the picture to represent why that person cut.
wow.
u wrote.
"ONE CUT-MISS LAOGONG
ANOTHER CUT-AHDI LEAVE ENERGY. *NEWS FLASH, IT WAS TORO WHO LEFT ENERGY. WANNA INSULT PEOPLE FIRST GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT FUCKING IDIOT!*
THIRD CUT - SLY LOST SINGAPORE IDOL AND YADA YADA YADA..."
i mean like wtf. is with all these.
you don't even know that person personally and here you are thinking you're doing your DUTY as to insult her.
if you go to HELL AND ROT TO DEATH, I WOULDN'T BE SURPRISED.
WITH ALL THE INSULTING YOU'VE DONE I THINK EVEN HELL IS TOO LENIENT!
AND FOR YOUR FUCKING INFO, PEOPLE DON'T CUT BECAUSE OF SUCH STUPID REASONS!
ONLY YOU ARE FREE ENOUGH TO DO THIS KINDA STUFF. YOU'RE JUST AN OVERRATED ATTENTION SEEKER TO ME.
NOTHING MORE.
IF YOU WANNA DO THIS KINDA THING, GO FUCK YOURSELF WITH THE PIG.
OR MAYBE THE PIG'S TOO SMALL FOR YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE.
MAYBE A FULL GROWN HORSE WOULD DO THE TRICK.
GO ON DEN.
FUCK THE HELL OFF.
AND AFTER READING ALL THAT YOU FEEL OFFENDED, THEN YOU'RE EITHER ONE OF THOSE KIND OF PEOPLE OR YOU THINK IT'S SO FUNNY TO LAUGH AT PEOPLE GETTING INSULTED.
I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH PEOPLE HAVING THE LIKES OF YOU.
I DON'T CARE IF YOU ARE SOMEONE CLOSE TO ME OR NOT.
I HATE PEOPLE LIKE THAT TO THE CORE.
INSENSITIVE BASTARDS!

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

yupps. that's about it.
i noe i swear too much. i'm just much too pissed.
ahwells.
shall end here.
goodbye.

library stuff (:

2005-09-01T20:07:00.000+08:00

HEYA!
on ACCOUNT of alyssa, i shall blog about YESTERDAY (:
yesterday was TEACHERS' DAY CELEBRATION.
o whee.
so after school, went back to PRIMARY school with SABRINA.
met JING YI and LI TING there.
and more CEDERIANS came.
wow.
didn't know there was SO many.
lol.
den alyssa DECIDED to GRACE us with her presence. =pPp
saw debi and gave her a HUMUNGOUS hug and some SICK jokes that left her 'THAWING' according to HER.
lol.
after that, left school and went to LIBRARY with alyssa cos we DIDN'T want to go home.
curse her say later she will meet EUGENE and EVAN.
guess what?
they really APPEARED at the place we were drinking bubbletea before going to the library.
hahas.
psycho. lol
den i MADE alyssa go say hi.
den alyssa's PRECIOUS DARLING couldn't recognise her.
whahahahahs.
den decided to go library together.
and den me and alyssa went up to the second floor to look for books.
then EUGENE came up and told alyssa NOT to go down cos got lots of CHUNG CHENG PPL there.
den this guy appeared and with a grp of GIRLS.
den they walked over but his fone rang and den dey left.
den more ppl came and they wanted to take a CLOSER look at ALYSSA.
they couldn't make it ANYMORE darn OBVIOUS. *tsktsk
well. went down to help alyssa check out what was HAPPENING.
saw a bunch of CCHMS CLIQUE there.
big SURPRISE larhs.
hahas.
den me and alyssa couldn't take it no more and decided to GO back in.
thus numerous WHISPERS followed.
yupps.
all these left alyssa so PAISEH!
whahahas.
i tink that was about ALL larhs.
yupps.

goodBYE (:

updated!

2005-08-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

hello hello...
finally decided to update again.
not much has been happening.
after all.
i have an uneventful life.
yups.
anyway, i shall do day by day blogging barhs.

Saturday
went to fop *festival of praise to those who didn't know*. was great! hillsong and delirious totally rocked larhs. haas. met sophia, natalie and a few other people there too. (: hahas. saw these two little girls who were dancing like there was no tomorrow. they were so adorable larhs. =pPp well. i tink tat's all that happened on that day anyway. haha.

<u>Sunday
went to church as usual. but more sleepy. hahas. lame. after that went out to lunch. usual places like cine. hahas. town is getting kinda boring liaos. always the same place. always the same food. lol.

Monday(today)
went school national day celebration. choir performance was awful. gown was too hot! wasn't a really nice day to boot. i'm feeling grouchy. had community singing. got scolded during assembly for nothing. how great!

anyway. go check out joan's blog! she updated! finally! she wrote utter crap. she totally twisted the whole friggin story larhs. neway. i'll stop here. bye!

Everything Burns : Ben Moody Feat. Anastacia

2005-08-02T19:31:00.000+08:00

Everything Burns

she sits in her corner
singing herself to sleep
wrapped in all of her promises
that no one seems to keep

she no longer cries to herself
no tears left to wash away
just diaries of empty pages
feelings gone astray
but she will sing

till everything burns
while everyone screams
burning their lies
burning my dreams
and all of this hate
all of this pain
we'll burn it all down
as my anger reigns
till everything burns

walking through life unnoticed
knowing that no one cares
too consumed in their masquerade
no one sees her there
and still she sings

till everything burns
while everyone screams
burning their lies
burning my dreams
and all of this hate
all of this pain
we'll burn it all down
as my anger reigns
till everything burns

everything burns
(everything burns)
everything burns
watching it all fade away
(all fade away)
everyone scream
everyone scream
(watching it all fade away)

till everything burns
while everyone screams
burning their lies
burning my dreams
and all of this hate
all of this pain
we'll burn it all down
as my anger reigns
till everything burns

everything burns
watching it all fade away
everything burns
watching it all fade away

be yourself day

2005-07-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

hmm. very long never update liaos. been having lots of fun being a"hooligan" to a"bimbo with coconut juice in her head". heh! it's a rather long story. went to kovan today to buy be yourself day clothes. i wonder why i took the time. spent over 70 bucks there. so expensive. and it was only a light pink polkadot dress with dark pink dots. heh. and a pink cardigan. with of cos, pink flower earings. haha. never see the day where i will ever wear this. hahah. can't believe myself siahh. maybe i'll take a few photos on that day. though i'll look rather pinkish. i tink kay wei will laugh till the day ends. hahas. she absolutely adores pink. hahas. then on that day i have choir rehearsal for national day concert in school some more. so troublesome. change here change there. ah well. all for the sake of being enthu. heh. at least nadia and amirah gonna join me and wear also. hahas. if not i won't wear. later become so extra siahh. still haven't bought the shoes though. don't really know what kind of shoes to buy siahh. any ideas? hahas. hmm. mum asking me off the computer liaos. hahas. o yea. i bought two baby lobsters. their in my fish tank now. so cute and pretty one. hahas. ok. shall stop here larhs. bye all!

-xiao la jiao

to hell with rumours!

2005-07-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

i've had it with the rumours!
i tried ignoring it!
tried forgeting it.
but you know what.
that doesn't work.
because people are always there to remind you of this rumour's existance.
to hell with it.
what is today.
making people pissed day?
damn it!
damn it!
damn it!
to hell with my language.
i don't friggin care!
to a certain someone!
go ahead and call me a bimbo.
you don't even know me.
and you call that the true me!
i've had it.
i didn't mean to blow things up but i can't take it anymore.
to hell with whatever oscar nominee.
to hell with everything.
the friggin food fair..
the friggin projects..
the friggin studies..
if i were to list out everything.
i'd probably offend the whole world!

moodless --`

2005-07-05T21:20:00.000+08:00

bad stuff has been happening...
bad family stuff...
dun really wanna talk bout anything right now.
really moodless.
no heart to study already.
how to chiong for ip?
tell me how?
haii.
been long since i updated.
ah well.
with all the screaming going in the house, i hardly can rest.
exams coming full speed.
teachers yelling!
parents yelling!
lets see how long i'll last this time.
choir auditions tomorrow.
great!
just great!
ah well.
that's life.

laas..

2005-07-03T19:55:00.000+08:00

hello hello hello...
haven't been updating much these days.
well, my holidays has been great!
the greatest i've experienced in the 13 years of my life.
=p
retreat was really good.
it had a really great time swimming, bowling, hanging out with friends.
i had a really fun time.
though there were times that i was sad there.
it didn't matter cos i was happy most of the time.
the food there wasn't really nice though.
ended up having gastric many many times.
X)
ah wells.
me got to know many many people better through that one week!
so happy!
heehee =pPp
that was the most enjoyable week of my life.
i really miss it now.
so used to spending time with you guys.
='(
can't wait for youth camp though!
so excited.
hmm.
these holidays are mostly spent with church barhs.
spend until my mum complain that i might as well live at church.
=X
really miss those days.
no worries.
haii.
no school start lerhs.
i dun really like it though.
i hate my school.
haii.
teachers are o so boring.
blahh.
ah well.
i still have to study and get good grades to go to ip programe.
so i shall mug and chiong lorhs.
just to get outta cedar then go junior college.
hmm.
i tink i blog lidat larhs.
nth much to blog..
byes!

leaving 99

2005-07-01T17:13:00.000+08:00

Leaving Ninety-nine

I'm lost and broken, all alone on this road

the wheels keep turnin', but the feelin' is gone

when I fear I'm on my own

You remind me I am not alone

when You said

I'd leave ninety-nine

leave them all behind

to find you

for you alone

I'd leave ninety-nine

leave them all behind

to find you

it's dark and lonely and the path is unclear

can't move my feet because I'm frozen in fear

then you say, "My child, my child -

I am always here, I'm by your side"

I'd leave ninety-nine

leave them all behind

to find you

for you alone

I'd leave ninety-nine

leave them all behind

to find you

you're never too far down

I promise you'll be found

I'll reach into the mud and mirely clay

pursue you to the end

like a faithful friend

nothing in this world can keep me away

I'd leave ninety-nine

leave them all behind

to find you

for you alone

I'd leave ninety-nine

leave them all behind

to find you

too emotional? what the heck!

2005-06-09T18:10:00.000+08:00

lets just put this entry as an exceptionally pissed pissed pissed one.
i mean like.
what is happening to the world?
where is the farking love.
ironic as it seems.
they keep telling us that they're doing all this because they love us and everything.
no.
it's all for cold hard cash.
nope.
it ain't my parents i'm talking about.
it's about the farking arghhh!
if i ever say that farking word, the government probably come after my head and put me in bloody jail.
guess what?
i don't give a bloody farking damn!
sue me all you want.
i'm correct aren't i.
study.
study.
study.
that's all you think about isn't it?
i know you're intelligent and all.
but not all of us are that way you know.
what casino is good.
please larhs.
wad farked up shit is that?
it's all for cold hard cash.
you can't survive without it can you?
let me tell you.
singapore graduates never make it.
you know what's the difference between us and other countries graduates?
singapore only make us study study study, memorise memorise memorise.
what kind of shit is that?
other countries do hands on.
we singaporeans.
cannot apply our knowledge to work.
because all we do is memorise.
we don't know with our lives what's the reason for everything that happens.
get it?
study isn't everything!
arghh!
do you see those uni graduates with a job?
no.
it's those that have lower education.
why?
because they know how to apply their skills to work.
you implant some kind of farked up shit into our parents mind.
now, it costs us kids the problems.
stress.
whatever happened to the love huh?
wow.
the government loves us so much.
i'm so touched.
arghh!

ARGHHH!!!!!!!

2005-06-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

what the heck is friggin wrong with me?
what's wrong?
what's wrong?
what's wrong?
why am i sho friggin irritable?
arghh!
mii existance is a total waste of space!
arghh!
forget it!
i tot i could get back to blogging in getting my feelings out but i can't seem to do it anymore.
i just feel like kicking everything i see!
where's that friggin xbox game when i friggin need it.
arghh!

edited version : lost innocence

2005-05-27T21:56:00.000+08:00

heyy ppl...tish ish dda edited version of the poem ii posted earlierr...sincee got sho much errors..haha...mii eng badd...=))

lost innocence

the innocence i once held

lost in that pool of lies

the emotions i once felt

given to pay the price

regreting the path i've chosen

i've surrendered to my destiny

there seems to be no more reason

for her spirit has since left me

i've lost everything i once held dear

them i've killed with my own bare hands

now i live with the guilt and the fear

though i'm ruler of all the lands

now all that is left of me

are the scars where the memories loom

all i wanted to do was save her

not send her to her doom

but what's done cannot be undone

my life now is just like a game

all that i have now is a daughter and a son

and they don't even know my name

star warss

2005-05-26T19:50:00.000+08:00

wass readingg summ star warss fanficc and all tishh juss got tuu mii headd andd ii hadd tuu get it outt.. =))

it's in anakin's point of view. there'll be one in padme's point of view once ii get dda inspirationn. haha.

lost innocence

the innocence i once held

lost in that pool of lies

the emotions i once felt

given to pay the price

regreting the path i've chosen

i've surrendered to my destiny

there seems to be no more reason

for her spirit has since left me

i've lost everything i once held dear

them i've killed with my own bare hands

now i live with the guilt and the fear

though i'm ruler of all the lands

now all that is left of me

are the scars and the gloom

all i wanted to do was safe her

not bring her to her doom

but what's done cannot be undone

my life now is just like a game

all that i have now is a daughter and a son

and they don't even know my name

copiirightedd

-justhatemiee =)

wadd do ya thinkk??

anyy comments??

post at tagg board.

thanxx

=))

sec 1 sl understudiee for a2 choirr??

2005-05-25T17:54:00.000+08:00

lala...
juss got backk frm school.
choirr pracc.
todaee nebaa singg lorhss.
coss ii onii came back for dda last one hourr of dda pracc.
and datt was whenn deyy were announcingg dda new choirr commitee.
sho ish
announcee
announcee
announcee
denn suddenlyy sumbodyy call miee
denn ii huh??
denn deyy saee ii selectedd tuu be sec 1 section leader understudiee for alto 2 choirr.
denn ii huh summoree.
coss ii frm alto onee not alto twoo lehss.
in dda endd, ms chyee switchh miee over tuu alto twoo.
saddd
budd nvmm.
gott neww seniorss tuu tokk tuu.
haha.
i'mm retardedd.
o yarhss.
anyonee wanna watch star wars 3 : revengee of dda sith wibb miee???
i'm dieingg tuu watch it againn.
haha
=))
sendd miee an sms will ya??
thanxxx
newayy.
miee tireddd.
shall blogg next timee.
lala..
byess!

backk =))

2005-05-24T19:30:00.000+08:00

heyy heyy ppl...
juss watchedd star warss yesterdaeee!
whee~
damnn damnn nicee lorhsss.
ratherr saddd and gruesomee thoughh.
haha.
gonna gett resultss back soon...
not realliee worrieddd coss ii didn't faill.
thankk godd.
haha...dun realliee no wadd tuu writee lehsss.
finalliee no spammer lerhsss.
o yarhss.
miee enteredd poem competitionn.
dunno whether can makee dda cut anott.
worrieddd siahss.
tmrr got choirr.
aiyarr.
wadd m ii doingg??
haha.
todaee conductress call miee and a feww otherss tuu see her after skool.
den she saee ish audition tuu see if we habb nicee enuff voicess tuu understudyy dda section leaderr cos seniorr saee our voicee niceeee.
lidatt oso muss audition siahss...
wierddd.
hah.
k.
miee stopp crappingg here.
byesss

lalaiciousss

2005-05-23T10:21:00.000+08:00

lala...neww blogg =)